Friday, September 14, 2007

A Sad Realization

I'm not a" bottom". Sure, I can "bottom", but it doesn't define me sexually. I have a friend who I'm kind of avoiding, because of the pressure I feel to try to please him by being what I know I'm not: a bottom.

It saddens me because it feels like one more way that I don't fit in. I'm not "straight". I'm not skinny. I'm not a "top", and now I know I'm not a "bottom", as well.

I'm Jim. That's the most important thing. I must be true to myself.

I need to make a phone call tomorrow. He deserves to be told the truth.

6 comments:

thechubbyavenger said...

I support you in defining yourself the way you choose. I also support you in not definging yourself the way you choose. If terms like: Straight, Bisexual or Gay, as well as terms like: Top, Versatile or bottom bother you, don't use them. The only term, relative to you, that I care about is the term, "Jimmycity". That is the most important one. As shakespeare said, "To thine own self be true." That was ole shakey, wasn't it?

Yours

thechubbyavenger

Dick Small said...

Um, what's a "bottom"??? I've no clue.

Dick Small said...

Btw, I want to see Chubby's profile pic. He sounds incredibly attractive (I mean, since you and Ice John just totally gave me the shaft).

Mel said...

OK I dont even know what that means (I have an idea) but you are Jimmy and I think you are a great person.

I am straight and really have never fit in.

g-man said...

Dude join the club. The fun part in the exploration of who you are sexually. There are times when I would love it for my wife to play bottom, and times when I could be. I think we are defined by the moment. I think you are right and alright for telling him the truth.

Dick Small said...

I still don't know what a bottom is. Of course I know nobody's gonna tell me. Well, that's fine, I'll just GUESS what it is...