Today Is A Special Day
Yes, today is a special day for me. Like most important days in my life, I will be introspective and quiet and amazed at all this day means. But this "special day" has extra significance to me.
Today is my birthday.
Today I turn (eek!) 49 years old.
Could someone slow the ride down just a tad? I mean, I'm having a wonderful time, but Holy MOLY, things are blazing by me pretty fast.
Today I begin the last year of my forties. Man, oh man!
Some people my age are grandparents. I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do and BE when I grow up. Why am I so far behind the curve? What in the Hell am I doing?!?
Well, I'm doing the best that I can. I am being myself. I am trying to accept my place in The Pattern and work WITH it, instead of against it. I have a heart full of Love that I am determined to share with those I meet along the way. The ones I don't want to kill, that is.
I make ridiculous mistakes, nearly daily, but I try to not beat myself up over them. I am impatient, and loud, and WAY too self-involved.
And, I hope to do better for my forty-ninth try at it.
Do you feel your age? Are you amazed at how old you are?